Someone once asked me this question. “Why do I always see you smiling all the time? You are always so happy whenever I see you. It’s pretty obvious that you have something that I don’t! Don’t get me wrong though, I love catching up with you and being around you as the joyful aura around you never fails to lift up my spirits."

After hearing what was said, my reply was another polite smile. In my mind I was thinking how to share with this acquaintance I have known for some time. However, I decided not to take the risk in case I offend him because I was like him before I came to know the Lord, my savior. I guess I needed more wisdom and confidence back then to share. Oh well!

Going back to my story, things were never the same again after I accepted Christ. Please don't get me wrong! I was happy before I accepted Christ, but there were so much more downs in my life that the happiness were short lived. I used to let my hair down and "buy" happiness with money and time. I was clearly living in a false illusion of glamor back then which brought along much attention because of the "in" look from the clothing,hairstyle and grooming i splurge on myself.

This soon led to a few once "fairytale" love that brought nothing but disillusion, lies and tremendous hurt that left scars on me for life. Those memories are still there but have faded into history.

Little that I know what He has prepared for me. The moment I accepted Christ, the past was erased by the salvation I have received from Him. Slowly through time reading the bible, I started feeling happier and happier day by day. My heart is being flooded with immerse joy inside out.

The feeling of immerse joy from within is very difficult to pin down in words. It is more than being on top of the world. If I were to explain, it is true liberation from everything. I can feel a huge burden lifted off my chest. In the bible, a verse: Nehemiah 8 says this "The Joy of the Lord is your strength". I can finally relate to that. Even though I am still struggling with the day to day affairs of the cruel life, I can now face it with confidence and joy. Everything becomes clearer whenever I read the bible of truth.

If you are a christian like me struggling with life, you can be assured that everyone of us will go through this phase. However, He will from time to time comfort you and give you unexplainable joy that appear out of no where. Be strong, read the bible and be happy!